I miss you

  1. My grandfather Joie Ray Terrell was a Man who I will always remember. He was the only father figure I have ever truly known. He used to go off to work early every morning. And each day when he would pull out of the driveway I would be wishing I could go with him. I loved him so much. I remember running to him each evening he returned from his long day at work. He never came home mad. He would hug me and my twin brother with a smile on his face. Then he walk up to his wife (my Grandma) and give her a kiss and they would walk in the house together. Sometimes on the weekend he would let me & my brother go with him while he was running errands. He used let us take turns sitting on his lap while he was driving and place our hands on the steering wheel to make us feel like we were really driving the car. I was too young when he died, and when he passed away I felt like my best friend left me here all alone. I hope to see him again someday when it’s time for God to call me home. I have been thinking about my Grandpa a lot more lately. I love you Grandpa. I hope to impact someone else’s life while I’m here. Thank for you showing me what a real man is supposed to be like. I’m trying to become a carbon copy of the type man you were while you were here.


Watching your investment

I’m sure we have all heard the phrase you never know what you got until it’s gone. Most of the time this phrase is spoken out when someone close to us has hurt us or have betrayed us. Our time on this earth is really short. I’m 44 years old and now I see what this verse really means in (James 4:14 whereas you don’t know what will happen tomorrow. For is what your life? It is even a vapor appears for a little time, and then vanishes away). Now days I dislike when someone waste my time. Because I can always be doing something productive with my time. By either investing my time by witnessing to a lost soul who doesn’t know the Lord Jesus Christ or praying to God in my alone time, or my putting time into my blogs, or even working out at the gym. If we looked at the Kingdom of God the same way people look at stocks and 401k investments accounts the game would look a lot different. Because those things not only concerns our own lives but it benefits our families lives as well. Investing your time on this earth wrong can lead you straight to hell if you only lived a sinful lifestyle the whole time you were alive. Our mindset as followers of Jesus should always concerns God’s Kingdom. Asking God to lead us to lost souls or to a brother or sister should always be our aim. If I could spend my time driving sports cars all the time I probably would. But at the end of my life when I have to face my Savior, there’s no excuse I can use that will good enough to justify why I didn’t invest more of my time into the Kingdom of God. Why do we fill Gods house every weekend only to be disobedient and not walk out what Jesus commands us to do? Gods goodness extends beyond what we have materially. Our time on this earth should be all about Him. It’s okay to have nice things but they should never cost your soul or your relationship with your God. You can’t afford to let those things become your idol. Matthew 6:20 (Lay up not for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust destroys and where thieves break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be there also). I want to encourage not only whoever it is who will reads this but myself as well. Let’s get a return on our heavenly investment that keep we will keep benefiting from for all eternity.

We have lost our way

I watched Halloween come and go this past week. And I was absolutely amazed how many Christians actually celebrated the holiday. As a matter of fact I hadn’t seen so many Christians who had done so in quite sometime. I know more now since I’m older than I did when I was younger growing up. My Mama use to take me to church every Sunday but yet I grew up celebrating Halloween. No one never told me or my Mama why I shouldn’t be allowed to celebrate such a holiday like Halloween. I didn’t find that out until years later when I was in my late twenties. It was then when surrendered my life to Jesus, God surrounded me with a handful of believers who took the time to speak into my life about things I should no longer participate in. A lot of times it wasn’t what they said that gave me an ever lasting impression, but how they lived their lives. That was the difference. I remember how God started to speak to my heart how I should leave worldly things behind. If I was going to become the person He created me to be, then the gangster music, weed smoke, the alcohol and all the lusting after women was going to have to cease. Even Halloween. When I stopped celebrating Halloween I never once placed a sign on my door stating that there’s no candy at my place of residence. In all of my years of having my own place I was certainly convinced that God orchestrated for no trick or treaters to knock on my door for candy. It continued to happen year after year. The more time I spent with God the more I desired not celebrate such holidays as Halloween. It’s time for every believer to question themselves when they do such acts if their worship toward God is being done in vain or not? As believers we’re supposed to be different. A true believer is someone who puts God first in everything he/she does. Celebrating Halloween as a believer makes us look like the rest of the world. It’s no different than someone who confesses to be a Christian but after a while of hanging around them you can never tell if he/she is because of all the cuss words, worldly music, heavy drinking on the weekends, participates in having sex outside of marital context. In Deuteronomy 14:2 Moses wrote, For thou art an holy people unto the Lord thy God, and the Lord hath chosen thee to be a peculiar people unto Himself. Halloween is the 4th most celebrated holiday of the year in the United States. I believe if Christians didn’t celebrate Halloween then maybe it wouldn’t be ranked so high. The Apostle Paul wrote in (Galatians 4:8-11 Formerly when you did not know God, you were enslaved to those that by nature are not gods. But now that you have come to know God or rather known by God, how can you turn back again to the weak & worthless elementary principles of the world, whose slaves you want to be once more? You observe days and months and seasons and years. I am afraid that I may have labored over you in vain.) It bothers me that some of the church has compromised their faith by allowing their children to dress up for Halloween. That’s Satans day, it’s not for us. I remember as a child how I used to hear on the news how razor blades were being stuck inside of candy. My Mama used to have to check my candy bag for such things before I could eat any of my candy in order to keep me safe. Those things are still happening even in 2018. Not celebrating Halloween for any follower of Jesus should undoubtably be and always remain a negative regardless on what the world might say. Pleasing our Heavenly Father should always be the big picture and our goal.

Don’t ever give up

Hello bloggers, friends. It’s been a while since the last time I have had a chance to write anything and share it with the world. I hope everyone is feeling alright and you’re all doing well. If you’re reading this, allow me to say thank you for taking time of out of your day to read my blog. I appreciate it. I have been in a financial struggle for quite some time now. I have been through several jobs through out the last few years. For whatever reason, it has not worked out on those particular jobs. I know I have called to do great things by God. In (John 14:12-14 Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask me in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it). For years I have wanted to go work for Greyhound as a bus driver. My attention has always been fascinated by the dog on the side of the bus since I was knee high. I finally applied to Greyhound and was called in for a interview weeks later. The interview felt great and afterwards the hiring manager wanted to know if I was still interested after the interview was over. His name was Jesse. He asked me did I need time to think about it? No, I have already thought about it, and I’m ready to do this. So I took my D.O.T. Physical, and drug test. My background check was being conducted during that time also but I felt pretty confident that God was with me and it would all work out. The road got a little rough when I had to do my P1 test and I wasn’t able to do it at the library so I had to do it at the Greyhound location in Seattle which Jesse was glad to allow me to take the test there. During the process I had to have my license changed from intrastate to interstate in order to go to Los Angeles and learn how to drive buses at the school in California for two weeks. In all of my years of driving, my license has never taken a long time to come back. What should have taken between 7 to 10 days for me receive my new copy of my license. Only to find out a couple weeks later the lady who worked at the DMV typed in my address wrong. And it would need to be corrected and I wouldn’t have my license in time before I left to go to California. But, I was allowed to use my temporary license until my hard copy was received in the mail. When I got to California I thought it would be much like Truck Driving School. It wasn’t anything like that experience. It felt like bootcamp. Some students were hollered at by some of the instructors. The classes were long. A lot of days when we got back to the hotel we really didn’t have a lot time to study if we had to wash clothes or we had to go near by stores or restaurants to go buy ourselves something to eat. After the first week, I was numb. I wanted to go home. If it wasn’t for my roommate named Robert from Sacramento who I shared a hotel room with. Encouraging me to hang in there, and few other friends of mine like Ty and Ann who were telling me the same thing. Who was also praying for me during the process I would have given up. Most mornings I did feel like giving up. But when I got to class something strange would happen. God would give me strength to endure the day. By the middle of each day I was feeling confident. During my second week, I needed to learn my brake test and the pre-trip inspection test. It was a lot more detailed than Truck Driving School. My heaviest time of studying was the Friday afternoon before test day on Saturday morning. I didn’t really think about it much after I study. The next morning I wasn’t sure how much information I attained from studying. My thought was, I know what I know. Long story short. I performed the brake and pre-trip test almost flawlessly, but it was more than good enough to pass. I aced it. I felt like I deserve it because I didn’t allow myself to quit. What had been two of the hardest weeks of my life, had now taken a turn for the better. My end result was a certificate of completion and the opportunity to move on to the next phase after completing my training in Los Angeles. I still have a heart and a dream to do full time ministry one day. But for now this is where the Lord is allowing me to be. If you have a dream in your heart, don’t ever give up.

Declare War

It’s crazy to see how many people can openly disobey God because of their own fleshly desire, then look at other people differently who go to jail for doing crimes they were convicted for. It’s really petty to hear one sinner say oh, he went to jail for tax invasion, or she was a teacher who was found guilty for having sex with one of her teenage students. Sin in America is a problem, and it is only getting worse. Sin offends God further more it separates us from Him when we commit sin. (Isaiah 59:2 But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins has hid His face from you, that He will not hear you.) Our desires to be different from others is no excuse for our sinful actions. Let’s take a look at same sex marriage. This was never Gods plan for His creation. If you speak against same sex marriage because you’re a follower of Jesus Christ they will say you’re a hateful person who don’t know what love is. But I say if they truly knew who love is (Jesus) then they would repent and turn away from their wickedness. We weren’t created to please men, we were created to worship God. This is not just an attack on same sex marriage, it’s an all out war on all sin.